It’s been a while.
Life had been business as usual. And honestly sometimes it’s hard to find compelling or entertaining story-type things to write about when life is happening at a regular, ordinary, wonderful pace. But with everything that has been happening for the last month I felt a pull tonight to come here. For none of us has business been usual.
For a little bit there I found myself on the internet a lot, reading more than I should have been. But my daily and unwelcomed 3:30am wake ups to a racing mind plus an iPhone telling me that my screen time was up 70% from the week before were enough to get me to shut it all off and just live. Sure, I research and I try to watch the governor’s daily speeches that tell a truth in order to stay on top of the state of the state and the country, but it’s limited. Yet lately I’ve felt myself bubbling up with tears.
But none of those tears have been caused by fear or sadness or panic.
I’ve been noticing things lately. New things happening around me.
I notice families taking walks together.
I notice kids playing basketball with their siblings in their driveways.
I’ve noticed signs made by employees of a local restaurant full of hope and thanks for the community who is keeping them afloat and giving them a purpose.
I’ve watched videos of communities gathering in parking lots of hospitals, singing and flashing their lights for the workers inside who respond with flashing lights back.
I’ve watched videos of local police car and firetruck parades for little ones with birthdays who don’t get to have their parties.
I cried big tears today when Summer’s teacher sent this link to the students, because they truly love our kids and they miss them and are doing everything they can to let them know they are still here for them. God her school is amazing and we love every single one of these people…
I’ve seen people slow down.
I’ve met neighbors that I’ve never met before.
I’ve seen my sister and nephew’s faces on FaceTime more in the last week than I had in the last 6 months.
I’ve reached out to friends to make sure they’re ok, and I’ve had friends do the same for me.
I was invited to a Facebook page that encourages people to put up hearts on their houses for others to find, and that inspired us.
I’ve taken Summer to a neighborhood no-touch scavenger hunt set up by 4 blocks of neighbors who organized it. It got us, along with hundreds of others in the community, out of the house to have some fun and feel a little normalcy again.
I’ve realized how lucky I am to have a boss who checks in daily to make sure I’m ok while I’m busy making sure everyone in my company is ok.
I’ve saved money by staying home and enjoying the things I already have.
I’ve read posts on Facebook of people living in fear looking for happy endings, posts that resulted in hundreds of people posting about how their brother, or mother-in-law or spouse was sick for a bit, recovered and is back in business.
And I know that’s not the case for everyone. But it was the case for them which doesn’t make it any less important.
I’ve had 295 FaceTime calls with this amazing person who may be going crazy at the same rate I am and I feel like if anything, the distance has made us closer.
I figured out how and finally painted my 2 story stairwell, just me, an 8-year-old and an extension pole, I finally hung a new chandelier, cleaned my basement, and rearranged my little one’s bedroom – all things I’d been wanting to do and I was finally granted the time to do it.
We snail-mailed a drawing to brighten someone’s day, we had a social distanced birthday party in the courtyard, we’ve ridden bikes on cold days and have officially seen how fast our little Murphy can sprint (he’s fast!) on walks that Summer would have otherwise passed on.
I’ve always searched for the good in situations, but with this I haven’t had to look far because it’s all right there. The world has been coming together and it is beautiful to watch it happen.
Our normal may never be the same that it once was but that may not be a bad thing, the new normal I’ve been watching unfold has been incredible.
It may take a month, or two, or twelve, but I promise this… it’s going to be ok.